sorry for being away!!

I think my guilty pangs are in their sublime form.That's why I am here...there is so much to write and whats happened with me...
Offlate the movies that i have seen..have been just a mind opener for me..there is so much too life than just scoring marks..Everyone always make some or the other new year resolution,just to never stick by it...and here I am ..writing it to the world...that my grit and verve cannot be shaken by those slimy materialistic pleasures...its a test of me...that this blog will witness...i dont want any followers or someone commenting on my blog....IT'S A LIFE ENLIGHTENING EXPERIENCE...that is what happening with me.
To start with the host of new year resolutions that I have made...
*I have to start doing things with an aim...being directionless is the biggest pain.
*I will do stuff that i have always passionate about...like History..English...
*Being true to myself...
*Not to take a shortcut option...study hard..
*Make sure that this is not one day...phenomna..
*My entrance exams if not anything had thought me to be...more competitive towards life.
*There is nothing to fear...
*I have nothing to lose.
*Learn from your failures..
WELL enough of these resolutions...Time is a better judge of them i think...

Irony of Twisted Minds

There is a purpose of everybodys existance on Earth just that some realise it in an nascent stage of their lives,and others are just left cribbing about the twisted mind within.The irony of twisted mind can be felt by anyone who is even a bit observant,they are all around you......infact just look inside yourself......in your self,you will find your self struggling with your self....

I have a whole list of examples with me to prove the irony of twisted minds.....so lets start with deeksha darling

*she really went wrong with all the boys she had choosen.

*doesnt learn from her mistakes.

*want to look as bad as possible.

*knows chicken causes her pimples,but still doesnt leave it.

next we can here discuss ankita anand,mind it its not my friends priority order...

*in the race deeksha,choosing all the wrong guys.

*doesnt believe in eating at all.

*trust me she is a simple girl....nothing much controvertial about her....

i think joyeeta is qiuntesential of a twisted mind

*got a bit late in life about doing things

*had all her crushes on jats(i love it)

*doesnt care about her weight

*is always biased towards me.

i am sure there is a lot of irony around everyone,it is only for you to open up your eyes to it.

My 2009

Alrite i am just about to write another post,while just goin through my blog...I realised i am kind of a self obsessed person....well many people have told me this,but it failed to register in my mind.
Anyways with a new year started off....i am here again writing about my imaginative simulative world.2009 will be the crucial year of life and there are issues about that.......well me giving my CAT exams make things equally worse for me.At times i have a feeling that those brain twisters and so called 10th standard mathematics is seriously beyond my reach....its not that i have lost hope or anything,its just that i havnt started.Trust me the feeling sucks......but here comes my new year resolution...STUDY......
I think all these thoughts are turning me into a nerd....but i cant help it....i cannot take everything in a joke...life is not that easy for me...there is so much to be proved to me and everyone around....thats my new year resolution....
and my all time new year resolution is to loose those fatty acids i hav accumalated on me,last year was a very satisfying one....i lost 7 kgs...nothing feels better than that...
And yet again after i have written my stupid post...the "self obsession "in me can never die....this adds another one to my list on new years resolution....
and before anybody starts thinking of me as a very determined and a focussed person,I should clarify...these are just the thoughts in my mind....resolution is a very strong word to use....he he...
and to follow....I am sure everybody agrees with me...

Dreamzzzz....

Whenever one uses the word Dreamzzz....all sort of unimaginable,unthinkable things start twisting and twirling in my mind.I have turned 20,and now i do feel that i am in some position to make judgements about others and myself.We all live in an atmosphere,where what we have can never be enough.Like it is very well said that"the grass is always greener the other side"...
To start with i used to be one self content person,i think the whole concept of dreamz was missing from my life.There was nothing that i didnt have in my life....it was a satisfying feeling....but then 2 years back...my life took a reverse turn...i dream i dream i dream.....and i am loving it.
The whole concept of dreams come in a package....along with it are a lot of unwanted attachments,like the bank of pessimist people who are always there to discourage us.....but still i dont stop dreaming.
My dreams vary...sometimes its about what i will achieve in life...I always picyurize myself in doing great things for my nation....my future...my guy....all of it...My dreams are still not in the ubnoxious category.I still dont dream wild....i wonder why???
May be it is always the shielded upbringing,but I cant put all the blame on others...finally it is me who has to take a call.I am answerable to my self.......I am inspired from my friends a lot.
One thing Joyee....you were there always for me.You have played a poignant role in shaping me up....i always dream to have your type superior command over english,your opinions....they are all so logical...I continue dreaming.....with i guess with a wider horizon..

something has shaken me

there are times when one feels so helpless,guilt concious....for that is happening around...the recent mumbai attack on the 26 nov has totally shaken my belief over the dream of my India,the slain act of barbarism by them just shows how immoral these terrorist are...There was a belief in me that muslims are responsible for spreading terror in my nation...but thanks to these terrorist they have helped me and my fellow Indians to abide by the fact the"terror knows no religion".I am sure now no political party can sway the masses on the name of religion.
i had these urge to really pen this down on my blog.Its kind off a message that is to all people who are responsible for the terrror attacks in my nation.Killing innocent people and showering bullets on them serves no purpose...it just shows the coward in you.It is easy to press the trigger....and shoot,as they have no courage to fight one on one with us....These people are like rats hiding in all the places and commiting various hideous crimes....as a nation I think this is the time to start a nation wide movement....to stop creating borders inside our own people...we need to be united as a nation..to counter the terrorist.
I would like to pay sincere homage to all the departed souls...who have laid there lives in saving us....We need to honour them..Ashok Kamte,Vijay Salaskar,Hemant Karkare...and our NSG commandoes and all the hawaldars who died...your sacrifice can never be forgotten.Its time that my country needs to boycott Pakistan in all ways...we dont need a dialogue...we dont believe in your hollow words...we dont want ties with you..be it cultural,sporting...anything....
A war can never be a solution in such an environment....all we want is security to the masses....strengthen our intelligence services....give the security of the country to NSG...do whatever,but do something....we are waiting for some action.....

one hell of an experience

What to write,what to tell...i will sum up...i nearly saw death....you can say that i am exaggerating a bit,but still i was suffering fron bronchitus.....holy shit!!!...i can assure the whole experience is scary,shitty and the overdose of antibiotics make you feel shitt..i hate the way i look now....it took me years to get over my dark circles,as well as the immoral tonsils.....I have come a long way in terms of fitness,there was a time when i could not walk a mile also....but now only i had started with jogging....
If fitness is to be taken,i think i am obesessed with it...even if a eat a small piece of food,my pangs of guilt start functioning...and the pertinent thing being, I am not thin from any angle....but still one can call me fit...I guess that is more important...
well it was that horrifying sunday evening of my life......the whole season has a festive feel to it....but i was soffucating myself to all the pain and agony...i couldnt breathe...even normal clothes where not giving me air to breathe....my head caught in a whirlwind...And only one question to ask...why did it happennn.....even the doctore are clueless about it...still no conclusion,I guess this gets further more serious as untill the cause not known...how can the treatment start....but i guess my will power really needs to be improved......A lot over my health.....and to the festive season...nothing much to tell...I have always felt that festivals in my family are not celebrated with the gusto and fiesty mood as in others....i always there is always an air of sadness...was it the initial fianacial crunch that my family had gone,that make them feel spending money on anything except basic necesseties of life a total waste......
That is one issue that pertains to every middle class first generation city dwellers.....there is enough money for all the goods in life.....but why feel the guilt while spending it...
I have planned a lot or my future...and i am sure that i achieve it also...and i surely believe in the concept of consumerism....and wish my family understands me and doctors help me in finding that one particular virus my lungs are allergic to..... and get well soon!!!!

A Wednesday...

Today is wednesday,anyways what is so special about it....that I wish to write about, how wednesday has affected me....To start with I just learned the logic behind keeping wednesday as the sabse sasta din for Big Bazaar...once you through the logic,I wonder how does one has the thinking ability to interpret a consumers spending pattern...Its quite an interesting piece,that I would like to write it done...."It goes like this generally the new concept of an executive costumer has come up..they wish to purchase all the groceries and household stuff on weekands,so it is a compulsion for these stores to keep fresh stock on the weekands.But this requires them to get away with the old stock...now comes the catch,so they give consumers and themselves to get done with it..at the market price on monday and tuesday.Finally A Wednesday is here,so they put up discounts and other various offers...to sell it off....In the end they are left with thursday and friday.They are left for the stock to be upgraded ..."
In a nutshell..the best part being that how even such small and insignificant cosumer practices are taken in account before framing any policies.The world to us seems to be very simple..yet there are hidden complexities that are interwined in our lifes. Often such situation arises that very reactions are so predictable....and to add on....it is one example I have learned how being a smart manager helps the firm....
My wednesday is still not over....a movie that I watched over the weekand.I had an indispensible urge to finally write on the most sensitive issue,something close to my heart and to my nation....the situation of muslims in India.A wednesday gives the right idealogy one will have to keep if not today but tommorow to curb terrorism in India.Its about how one "stupid common man" if pushed beyond the edge can rise from the ashes.
I am firm believer that terror knows no religion...recently there was a news about a nun veing raped...My take on it is its not about a nun being raped,its about women being raped...Only in India you can hear such piece of news....women are raped in this country every 9 minutes...but if it a nun,it becomes a political issue....
Similary in the movie..the common man shown has no religion...nor they give him a name through out the movie...The whole fear of being on the verge of death...takes a toll at him,and one day he decides that enough is enough....He himself willl have to clean the dirt of our nation...
In this country the root cause of terrorism is politics...votebank politics is played on every front...Why is that our Nation leaders are so shy to debate their policies and idealogies in the public...dont we have enough strong individuals to lead our nation. Why is Rahul Gandhi called the "yuvraj" of congress...are we still leaving in the era of dynasty politics...We have entered a vicious circle sowed by our very own elected leaders...The solution to this problem can be only to take a bold step...toughen our terror laws...and take decisions,otherwiswe in a situation where the verdict on the mohhamad Afzal case is still pending...it send such a wrong signal of India being a weak state....We really need to react and we as individuals contribute to the nation.....