A BRIEF HISTORY OF MY LIFE

i guess to the world i am one aloof creature....not exactly introvert but moreover the kind of person who likes to keep to oneself.i am sure this kind of demeanour is not applauding,but thats me.as such my life is not that exciting ,but i have my share of expriences.
Lets start with the laest movie that i saw Jaane tu yaa jaana, a very well made movie with tha same old story told in a refreshing way.i think i was in 4th grade i had just come across a spectacled boy with a frail body structure nothing too impressive.....but still took me by storm .And the impact was very profound till my 11th class,but i think its more stable now.
The difference being that now i dont eat,drink and sleep him.
but having spend all my teenage years drooling over one guy looks such a waste to me.my interaction with the opposite sex is on a all time low,cant blame him.never felt like interacting with anyone .and now unlike the movie my story didnt have a happy ending.....its been 4 years since i am on talking terms with him,with only one lesson to learn movies are nothing but imaginative fantasies that only make you cribb about how incomplete your life is.

my illusions with life

to be precise i still dont know wat i want out of my life......i want to be rich,happy and in the right words i should get a feel that my life is worth it......the thing with me is that i am focussed yet confused.so much i want to do that i dont........i dont know if i can make myself a bit more assertive.....

well a boring weekand.....

who on earth plans to start your day with with nothing to do on mind.Its me........got up and reluctantly gone for my driving lessons,i dont hate them but they are surely a pain in my ass....the only good part being at least i can say that i drive a car.and officially my super lazy weekand started with going to sleep again for another 3three hours and here i am writing my BLOG something so new to me,having isssues how to go about it.

And just to give you a kind of recap of the week gone by.Nothing so extraordinary about it.......i was thinking its going to be like this or that.....but yeah its an engineering college what more can i expect.i think moreover the problem lies in me...i have more of antisocial traits in me and my highly inflated ego,even i question its existance.

Personal life turmoil is on all time high,but still things were at a brighter side atlaest now.its again for me to decide what di i have to do.......but this strange feeling empowering me that

whats wrong with me

with all excitement and exuberance gone in vain.......the timetable sucks.i wish we students had the right to rebel against our college fellow.But the palable thing with me is sudden anguish i am feeling around me. the whole feeling is bugging me off........there is surely something to be proved to myself.
and my companion for life time,my best friend,the only person i think on earth who will always be there for me no matter whatJOYEETA BISWAS i just wish i ahd some medium on this earth to express how she has impacted me as a person.i think a testimonial is surely due for her.....just had to say i miss her.......come back joyee......

ITS MY FIRST TIME

here i come to write the myself out.............trust me the reason of me starting with the blogs is that my friends are completly hooked to it. and the world is going totally crazy about it...........so just decided to try my own hand on it.me being not much of a literary person.........can be kind of an exprience writing one.


hope to just write my feeling out......well enough for today...next time wen i login i will surely have stuff to write...:)